HEY DAD

One more day completed,
One more night to cry,
No one knows how everynight
I want to die.

One more time thats faded,
One more moment jaded.
Everyday I don't know how
I made it this far,
A kid shouldn't go through
all that pain,
I still have the scars.

Sometimes they tear open
and I feel the same way I did
when you left me dad,
Yeah I can still see you walking out that door,
A kid should never be that sad,
Why don't you want me anymore?

Nobody know's the crap I went through,
Six Dad, I WAS SIX,
I was just a little girl,
Needing her daddy, I needed you to fix me.
You made your family homeless,
yeah that's not all,
You use to want to kill us,
Was it worth losing us for the alcohol?

I'm still learning what it means to love,
Every guy Ive been with left like you did,
I don't know why, I guess I'm just not enough.
My life moves on with the past still in my head,
and at night I fall to sleep with a knife by my bed.

I just want to feel wanted,
I am so empty,
Thanx again dad, now nobody will ever want me.
And if they think they do,
they will find out in time when I speak,
They'll give up when they find out, I'm weak.

I'm still that little girl
that wants your love,
All you ever had to do
was give me a hug.
But all you gave me was pain,
and I still feel it everyday,
I use to think that my heart would mend,
that I'd be okay.

But I love you has gone unspoken
that's so wrong,
I've been broken
way too long.
And you think I only want you for your money,
You don't even know me
to judge me like that,
Just whatever, my lifes over, I now know,
that my heart, I ain't never getting back.

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