“Things were wrong in my life and I knew it. The entire world around me was falling apart and the only things I held to be true were all lies. Everyone knew where I stood, what I felt they just needed to hear me say it. I wouldn’t though I refused to. Why give out a weakness that can bring me to pain.
The days came and went slowly. I cried most the nights to sleep. There was nothing else I could do.
My family was falling apart behind the senses and I refused to speak of it. I spoke of it once, but only to my best friend then I let it slip away. A memory I shall fail to look back upon. Let’s just say only I know and only I feel the pain of it all.
My friends they were here for me. Always are here for me no matter what. They tried to help me but they couldn’t. My focus drifted in and out during moments we were suppose to be having fun and I couldn’t even look at things the same. I was pushing them away and I didn’t mean to.
My boyfriend, I loved him. I still do. He’s in my every thought, my every dream, and I feel him with every breath. Sadly he didn’t feel the same. I knew it at the time too, I still now it I wouldn’t be writing this. I can’t let him go though. He’s the one thing that feels right in my right, yet the one thing that caused all my anger and pain,” she paused for a moment to look up.
She looked at her, “Is that why you left?”
No I didn’t leave during all of this. I stayed. I had a lot going for me at the same time. I was working really hard trying to make money and I was going to school. Sadly I had seem to be failing at that too but I didn’t care. I didn’t have anything to lose nor gain.
I stayed away form home for a while, and no one caught on. Other then my friends who could see the pain in my eyes. I missed my family but I couldn’t face them at the moment. So I just took my thoughts and let them collect over time. My parents tried to get a hold of me now and then but I wouldn’t answer most the time. They knew something was wrong they weren’t stupid. They just didn’t know what and I wasn’t planning to tell them.”
She stood up and walked to the window, “You ever wonder what it would be like to just start your life over again? Where no one knows you and you can just make up a new life. Well that’s what I was dreaming.” You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or
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