I Was One ------ +Lady__Blaze+

I Was One

I'd thought he'd finally broken me, and left me there to die
Slowly
I thought I'd wither away and drift on the wild west wind, forever without shelter
It was as if my spirit was torn to ribbons on the silky words he spoke
And then heartlessly ground to putty
I thought I would never truly live again, not even as the leaves withered did I wither, but greater was my sorrow
I would hold the memory close and croon, hoping for a day to pass when I would cease
As I shackled myself to that memory and hated myself for doing it
I wanted to live again
But he had imprinted a constant distrust upon my heart that would never wear to ruin
That would linger on as I cradled the false recall
Kind words he said slithered over me to bind me to him
And he was the one
He was the one
Who stole that first kiss
A kiss I long to forget
For I regret its passing and the hurt it left for me
I should have saved it, not wasted it
Not wasted the new
The untouched
And now
I am changed, and I wish I had not done it
In the far dead reaches of my mind are the echoes of reasons
And they tell me, so silently, so gently
I am not dead
He was a real jerk
But he taught me so much
By pulling me out of my little shell, he inflamed me with passion
For life, for love, for passion itself
He brimmed with a seeking and a notion
To follow it no matter what
He left me
It is my burden to bear
My gaping hole to fill with what I will
My pain he does not know
I must remember
It takes two
And I was one
So please bring wrath upon my head for confessing, but it is true
My shame eats away at me even now
Behind my eyes my tears continually prick
But i bid them to be patient
And they will fall
When i am ready
For the brokenness
To flow
And Drench me in its completion

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