My Family Knows What It's Like Now

Ok I'll start off with a lil background...I'm 20 now but when I was 15 and 16 I wasn't this great teenager. I pretty much did things to make myself look like bad person even though I wasn't. The worst thing I did was get pregnant at 15. Anyways instead of my family being there for me they practically turned against me and talked behind my back...they went as far as to keep my cousins away from me cause they believed i was this really bad influence. I wasn't some bad person...just a lil naive girl who thought she was in love and didn't know what the heck she was doing.

Well I've changed my life around a whole lot and I'm a more strong minded person who learned from her mistakes and I have a great life now. Anyways my family still considers me a bad influence and I've had to put up with them talking behind my back for a few years now. I have two girl cousins my age and when I started to finally hang around them again...if they talked back to their mothers or had attitudes, I was to blame...why?? cause they were around me. My mom would always tell me to just let them talk and let things be...that one day they would see that not everyone is perfect.

Well i think my mom was right. They put their children on such high pedestals and now what??? One of my cousins turns out to be gay which I could care less its her life and I still love her all the same...and the family tried to keep it hush hush from me and my mom...i guess from embarrassment, but I knew for a year before they did that she was gay. My other cousin is very promiscuous and isn't afraid to show it and its like the whole family is in denial about her and her ways...because she's always been too pure. My other cousin is 15 and has been arrested for starting a fire, and for trying to steal a car.

I have kept my mouth shut all this time just like my mom asked me to. I see all that's happening now and I think they are getting what they deserve...no one is perfect and they are eating every single word they ever said about me. I'm not saying I'm satisfied cause I hate to see my cousins who have never hurt me go through what they are going through....but I feel some sense of relief to know that they can think bad all they want about me...but at the same time they have no right to talk.

Am I wrong to feel this way?? or think this way??

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