Wasting away over you... --iCyFiRe

I try to hear your voice whispering in my head,
I can hear it so clearly yet it seems so far away.
You're in another world,
calling out my name and all I can do is remain still.
I never changed the way that my mind thinks.
I'll always be the one stuck behind,
too busy looking back at what I had,
to move ahead and continue with life.
I'm still stumbling over your voice,
waiting for maybe just a little more,
but of course, it never comes.
My eyes are melting deep within my skull now,
I can feel the liquid drip along my bones.
I feel tired, blind, dead,
So empty to the fact that I was never able to see ahead of myself.
If only this hollow feeling would leave my body,
and this everlasting loneliness would fade away,
and begin to disappear like I have been doing lately.
These voices still echo in my head,
I no longer can tell which is right infront of me,
or which one is just a longing for the past,
nostalgia in it's best form.
Now I can see you sitting in the corner,
I reach out but I can't feel your presence.
Why do I keep falling for these false images?
You've made sure that I'm never the same again,
changing me for the worse,
letting life pass me by as I'm torn up over you.
I can't help the way that I feel,
and I can't control these thoughts in my head.
So I'll just continue wasting away the nights,
staring into the mirror,
thinking that my reflection is you.
It's you and you want me back.
However my reflection is not a real being,
and neither are my thoughts of you.
You will never be real to me again,
you've made sure of that.
I'm dying inside and you're laughing out loud.
Laugh away,
you'll suffer like this someday,
and you'll regret everything that you ever did to me.
Laugh away.

--iCyFiRe
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