Recovering with no regrets --iCyFiRe

Sucking in the mixture in the air,
everything seemed to be so right,
walking down that road with friends by my side.

Suddenly, I felt myself go,
I was in another place.
Lost and confused,
where am I?
I couldn't think straight,
my eyes kept wandering over what seemed like nothing,
all I could see was brightness.
I saw you there in the middle of it all,
your voice seemed so far away.
Was I really standing there next to you?
Or was I just watching from far away?
You seemed blurry,
what was happening?
You were talking to me,
but I couldn't hear a word you said.
It felt as if you weren't there,
and I was in my own world,
all alone by myself.
I felt paranoia kick in,
and everything was out to get me.
Was I safe? Did the other people know what was going on?
Am I getting home tonight?
I just want this feeling to end,
I never wanted to feel this way.
I'm completely alone and there is nothing that any one can do.
All that I could do was live through it and wait.

After what seemed like forever,
I saw that you were gone too,
and I felt so alone.
Although I could see you there infront of me,
I felt like there was not another person in the world,
and I could sense the tears rolling down my cheeks.
I was another person, I wasn't the same me.
I wanted it to be over,
I wanted to take back everything I did.
I blamed myself, feeling stupid.
Suddenly, you seemed to come back to this earth,
and you talked to me.
I was shaking horribly,
I was so cold,
or maybe it was because of the fear,
or it was that I felt so alone and scared.
You seemed to bring me back down to earth,
and I was no longer alone for this moment.
Maybe I could still feel the tears on my cheeks,
and my body was still shaking a little,
and the insides of my body were racing,
and maybe I would still be alone when I went home tonight,
but for that moment I felt like you were truly there.
Some one was there with me for once,
and I wasn't alone.

Eventually my tears dried,
my body stopped shaking,
the loneliness wore off,
and I came back to earth.
Every intense feeling from that night was gone,
and I could be me again.
Like it should be,
everything was just a memory...
Except for you being there.
From my night of loneliness that I went through,
I came out with a friend that understood me more,
and I felt a little better in this world.
A feeling that was much needed.
At least something good came out of that night
wandering through the bright streets of the foothills.
A better friend.

--iCyFiRe
**1/03/03
1:30 AM

Oh man, I haven't written a poem in about a month! So if it sucks so bad, that's why! Sorry, and thanks for reading.

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