chapter 3 "THE EXCEPTIONAL EXIT" written by- tomevans:

Sunday, November 24, 2002/

To say that someone has been watching over me & protecting me, is a understatement of incredible proportions! To say I walked through hoops of fire, barefooted down highways of broken glass, and escaped little redneck towns without being shot in the head- all because I'm one smooth dude- is both absurd & incorrect. I have been guided by a spirit that is precious, strong, and kind. I have been fortunate to travel the journey that life has taken me. To be alive, to feel so alive, and to feel so revived- after digging my way to the bottom of the pile, then to see something special waiting up ahead, only confirms my belief that there is a God, and a Saviour that died on Calvary for my sins and mistakes. Soon, I feel, I will get the chance to repay a small portion of the debt that I owe him. I've stared death in the face so many times-that I learned at one time, to get a rush from the 50-50 chance that I had of survival or destruction. I've had evil overtake my soul, my brain, my morals, and my principals- I've submitted to things that I would have never fathomed- had I kept hold of the Lord's hand. I immediately searched for the most uninhibited and immoral activities I could participate in- feeling no guilt. My feeling at the time was, I'm only dragging myself down, not children or a wife, just myself. Yeah right...................................

The lessons were complex, the conclusions were shocking, the results- amazing & humbling. The entire experience so far has been wearisome, kind've like a 2o year walk-a-thon! Yet it molded the stubborn and adhesive person I've grown to be. I have a strong feeling that some of the USM'ers I have had the pleasure of communicating with are very articulate and organized people. Very considerate and smart, with visions that are of a more intense view than most peoples. More detailed and guided. As if we are of a fraternity that hold the thoughts we share in our hearts, keeping guard over them. I think we hold the key to several things, best of all- our fraternity is of unselfish nature with proper ediquite. While good, honest & decent people live their normal lives, spend time in their normal homes, with their family- they try to do the right things, make the right calls. But everyone else? Downtown at the jailhouse, there's overcrowding, crooked lawyers and corrupt law enforcement officials. There's judges that aren't fit to disc jockey in a topless bar, letting violent sexual predators back on the street to strike again. There are cold blooded murderers released early from prison everyday. The notorious 'serial killers' are selling paintings, writings, and interviews in return for cigarettes and some money. Ironic, while the Gideons put bibles in hotel rooms, people sell memorabilia that once belonged to creeps such as Jeffery Dahmer, Gacy, Manson, Henry Lee Lucas, etc. The internet makes this type of business exchange possible. The internet makes child pornography more accessible *(see Danielle van Dam). The internet exposes children to pedophiles. The internet is a carnival of carnal representation and credit card crimes. It arouses those that don't need to be aroused in any manner. It excites people that can't control their emotions or their actions. The internet is a dangerous place..................

At one time, people of mental deformations such a pedophilia or sexual sadism, didn't get the opportunity to mix in with everyone else. Peoples lives weren't at risk. The kinds' of people were put in sanitariums and therapy, as well as drugs, were used in treatment- but they weren't released back into society. It's 2002 and parking garages have replaced sanitariums. Prisons are so overcrowded, that it's beginning to be a constitutional issue, it's getting to be 'inhumane' conditions. Slowly, the system is beginning to resemble Nazi prison camps. And to make matters worse- illegal immigrants are invading the already overcrowded space that we have no more of. Our Government needs to climb out of the l960's and spray the shame off of issues that are no more criminal than drinking beer. We need to make room for child molesters, child killers, people who murder the elderly, people who commit terrorism, and 'serial-killers'. Quit placing so much value on money, hasn't anyone in the Government or the justice system read the bibles opinion of the almighty dollar? What is it? "The root of all Evil". Quit releasing sexual predators, that have recieved very little therapy, and place them back into our neighborhoods. When will our elected officials start seeing the signs that the United States isn't safe anymore?

These are days of great apprehension and confusion. Personally, I'm frightened for several reasons, but we can't stop the wheels that are already put in motion. That's why we need to hold on to each other, pray, and help each other. Until the HOLY LAND, there's only each other to turn to. We must face reality that what is in the near future isn't a broadcast of Fox News Channel or MSNBC. It could very well be the end. It could all work itself out and everyone find a way to find peace and love- and the world be a joyous place. No more hostility, no more anger or prejudice. Just harmony and peace. All nations helping each as if we were one. No more inhumanity. No more dictatorship. No more War. Ever, the economical woes will magically disappear and we will all live comfortably, job security will mean just that- job security! It'll be swell. Just like the old days! Yeah, ok...................................

peace & love: tomevans/

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