So where to begin?? There are so many places to start. There's the empty photo album gathering dust, or the cigarette ashes in the keyboard. There are eyes so red and numb from crying that they can barely see. Everything just reeks of destruction and chaos...dismal dreary nothingness. I awake from a dream world (which only comes ever so rarely) and I am bombarded by a life that hates me, a life that DOESN'T EVER WANT ME TO BE HAPPY!! Love is not even something I dare try anymore. It gives me nothing but empty promises and useless hope....it's not worth it! "hate me" "love me" i can't do both!!! and i don't ever want to do the former. I hate so few people...and i try to love so many only to be shot down, back into my dark and lonesome hole of dispair and solitude. Love is childish and pointless...lust is ridiculous and shallow. Soooo....what to do?? Love...Lust....Or to be endlessly alone and tiresomely depressed again? What do i really want????? Well, i know what i really want..i know WHO i really want, and i even think he wants me too...but it doesn't matter now. Nothing does. He is all that mattered and now i don't even know. I loved him....i LOVE him...i just need to be alone? is it best to be alone??? ......
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