The Way It Always Ends

My life was taken away
All was destroyed never
Again will I beable to
Get close to anyone

My darkness puts hate
Into others I can't
Look inside anymore
It's not worth it
The price is to high
The pain is free

Shots won't ease the pain
The anger deepened into
The hate

Somewhere there's a grain
Of sand that we used
To escape this life that
You have left behind

The smoke lingers
The way your corpse
Was twisted and mangled
Is frozen in my
Memory

This blood on my hands
Just a vast reminder
Of what we had

The way it always ends
The memories stuck inside
Something that I'll never
Again be free of

Freedom seems so out
Of reach and I think
Once more that the
Air in my lungs was
The dust of the grave

Try to escape from reality
But I can't seem to find
Myself tears rollin' down
The cheeks of others but
They don't feel the pain
That I do

Two lives taken at once
Two lives one bullet
What is the sake of
Humanity coming to?

Somewhere is my memory is
A recurring vision of suicide
Escaping from the pain something
I can't do it's out of reach
Where do I belong?
Am I out of reach?
Too far away

Deep down an impression of
Fear and hate digs into where
The love once was why do
I even feel?

Mourning over silent tears
With superfacial smiles
Beaming on me where do
I turn for peace?

I feel the presence your
Eyes watching over me
Even as I write my
Prophetic vision of death

You were just another
Preamble to death a successor
That I never saw
Never saw it coming my
Way am I next to go?

Is there a predassessor
To my gut feeling?
Is death something to
Keep me awake at night?
This time it's different so
Close the comfort is gone
Here is the pain broken, torn,
Bruised, and bleeding for all
To see inside me

Dark clouds over my head
Rain pouring down dust
Settled into the ruined
Shambles of my lips upon
Your head

So now I see the picture
On the mental the earth
Opens it's wings and let's
You in the last image of
The peace and serinity of
My life as you go down
I pray to God that it
Would be me not you

The peace subsides into the
Hate without courage I
Would take them in vain
But for you I can't swallow
My sins

Look through the past see the
World over again time spent
And wasted on the trip to
Heaven leave a good word
For me

The way it always ends
The memories stuck inside
Something that I'll never
Again be free of