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I hate how I look,...please make me beautiful *PunkStarChikk*

  Author:  53909  Category:(Depression) Created:(7/22/2002 8:31:00 PM)
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I just wrote a post a little bit ago and it got me depressed. I hate the way I look. I cry about it all the time. When I look in the mirror, I dont see myself. I see an ugly person. Someone so disqusting that isn't worth seeing. I try to smile in the mirror, but there is no smile. Only saddness and the tears running down my cheeks.

When I see myself in the reflection, I put myself down. "You are so ugly! Just look at yourself!? Everything you do, everything you wear, everything about you is UGLY!!"

Why do I put myself down? I dont know. Why does it matter what people think and say about me? It does....I know it shouldn't...but it does. For once I want soemeone to say something nice to me. I want to feel beautiful, sexy and hot. Sure I have a beauitful heart...as people say, but that's not enough. I want people to acutally look at me and go "WOW..."

When someone tells me that I look cute...I say to them. "Stop being nice. Tell me the truth. Just say I'm ugly...I rather have the truth than the lie"

I dont know how many times I have written posts on topics like this.... Too many I suppose. My bf tells me I'm beautiful everyday...I just dont understand why. What's so beautiful about me. You're my boyfriend, of course you will say that and u love me for who I am. I am beautiful cause u love me. I can't understand those words he says, or how he could say it.

So many peoples have told me how ugly I am...strangers, friends in the past, past boyfriends and father.

If I could have just one wish...I wish to be beautiful for one day....Just to know how it feels like....Just to feel how it feels like to be beautiful..

Thank you for reading....

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Date: 7/22/2002 8:37:00 PM  From Authorid: 15400    Aw *Hugz* to you. My boyfriend and I both understand what your feeling. My boyfriend and I feel the same way about each other. We as well don't understand what other people mean when they say, "your cute,hot,sexy,beautiful". I don't think any of us will understand what people mean by that. All I know is all of us have very low self esstem and self confidence. I'm glad you posted this. Maybe when you get some replys by people who can help it will answer both of our questions on how to make us feel better about ourself. If you ever want to talk, feel free to MSG me. It's always nice to know your not the only one who feels the same way. *Hugz* -Take Care. Amanda aka:  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:40:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    Sometimes I feel like I need help. I used to cut myself all the time. I would just take that knife and cut my wrist and say "You deserve this.." I once carved the word "MONSTER" on my arm. Maybe I do need help, I dont know. *PunkStarChikk*  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:41:00 PM  From Authorid: 57232    OK, read your previous post, is your boyfriend making you feel this way, about his actions of looking at the other girls? B.Monkey.....I'll do anything to not have anybody else do the crap that I did in high school. Anorexia and Bulemia  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:43:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    No, my bf isn't making me feel this way. He did way early in our relationship. He doesn't do anything that would hurt me. *PunkStarChikk*  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:44:00 PM  From Authorid: 59261    You're beautiful to the person that matters in your life. Others have told you the same thing. Not all lie. Beauty is within also. Beautiful people can be the ugliest. Be proud of who you are and hold you head up high gf...~*Robyn*~  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:47:00 PM  From Authorid: 53164    I think that way about myself too. I have a couple of guy friends who say that I'm hot, sure but they actually gotten to know the real me. If someone just notices my face first, then they would never WANT to know the real me. That's my oppinion about myself anyways...I don't understand it...but something brought my spirits up a bit the other day...I asked one of my guy friends what they want in a girl, looks and all, and he told me "It's all in the eye of the beholder." I love that quote. ^_^  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:53:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    I know that I've got to stop putting myself down. I can't help it. *PunkStarChikk*  
Date: 7/22/2002 8:57:00 PM  From Authorid: 53052    try doing things to make yourself feel better.. simple things like get a hair cut(go in and ask them to do something what looks good on you and just let them go.. they tend to do a decent job)just a little thing like that may change your total outlook on life  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:02:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    I acutally did get a hair cut a few weeks ago. I dont really like it...it's too short...heh. *PunkStarChikk*  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:03:00 PM  From Authorid: 57721    It sounds to me that you've just had some cruel people in your life, and now that you have someone great in your life telling you that you're beautiful you don't really know how to deal with it. Try this...next time someone gives you a compliment smile and say thanks. I used to feel this way about myself but then I just learned to take compliments and it's done wonders! I hope this helps at least a little!!!! Jadeeyes  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:04:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    Dizzy...I do have a pic. On my web site. Not many those..then there's the one on my yahoo profile that people say I look like byork and christina ricci together...

http://profiles.yahoo.com/punkstarchikk
  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:19:00 PM  From Authorid: 31765    ok I'm going to give it to you point blank and brutally honest. You, girl, are a beauty. Now, I've never talked to you before...have no reason to say this out of kindness or sympathy or any of those other shallow things. From what I see, you're a beauty. I've no reason to lie, nor sugarcoat anything. Accept the compliment from a stranger and remember it when you're feeling down Best wishes  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:30:00 PM  From Authorid: 31765    a p.s. to this: you CAN stop putting yourself down. YOU have that power. see...we get these little tapes that start playing in our heads. the tapes say: you aren't good enough...you aren't smart enough...you aren't pretty enough. and ya know what? those tapes eventually become reality to us. so...try this. next time you start hearing those tapes play: stop them. i mean really make a conscious effort to stop them because really...trashing ourselves becomes a habit. and you can stop that habit. replace the tapes with good things. find one good thing about yourself and focus on it. and then...find another. you're going to be fine, i have faith in that.  
Date: 7/22/2002 9:55:00 PM  From Authorid: 12103    I know how you feel..but remember, thats all that DOES matter is how you are on the inside rather then the outside..sure some people will be prettier then you..there is always someone out there who is "hotter" then someone else..but looks fade..its your heart that never does...and thoes cruel people..maybe they look better then you..(i couldnt really say anywase cause i never saw you) they dont have a heart like you..your heart is what makes you beautiful on the outside as well on the inside..and your friends will see this..thoes people that judge you before they know you..once their so called "good looks" fade they will be the most ugliest ever...And when you do love someone, and people love you (not just boyfriend and girlfriend type of love, but the kind you have with your friends also) you dont see what they look like anymore..all you see is their heart...and im sure yours will be the most beautiful of them all take care...  
Date: 7/22/2002 10:08:00 PM  From Authorid: 55023    i feel that way too... i dont think im very attractive and over the years it has lead to me becoming paranoyed. its terrible. whenever i hear anyone say anything i think its something negative about me, and my friends have even begun to tell me that i really am paranoyed... but i cant help it... it makes me so sad  
Date: 7/22/2002 10:13:00 PM  From Authorid: 31048    OMG I just looked at your pictures..how could you think you're ugly?!?!? You are so pretty!! But outside looks don't matter either way. Your boyfriend sounds like such a sweetheart. Guys like that are hard to find...  
Date: 7/22/2002 10:15:00 PM  ( From Author ) From Authorid: 53909    Ya, my boyfriend is a real sweetheart. I love him so much and I feel so lucky to have him. *PunkStarChikk*  
Date: 8/3/2002 12:06:00 AM  From Authorid: 60656    I... understand exactly what you mean..

Genku
Date: 8/8/2002 3:18:00 PM  From Authorid: 56508    maybe you need help

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