SAD POETRY! but lesson told!

I am crying on the inside,
Smilling on the outside.
Fooling everyone in their own eyes,
Fooling everyone with complete lies.

Pretending I'm somebody else,
Because I don't know how to be myself.
Letting them see somebody they like,
But still knowing it isn't right.

Nobody told me what to do,
I told myself I have to.
I like to be with people who have fun,
But nothing's fun from the things I did and done.

I do wish to speak my feelings out loud,
Instead Of choosing the wrong type of crowd.
They said they'll always be there for me,
Until I wanted out, and they wouldn't let me free. *~*~*~Stef*~*~*~

I had a choice to walk away and leave,
But with bruses and a tearless cry,
Either path I choose to recieve,
Only one will let me hold my head up high.

So I took the pain to leave the path I once chose,
I once thought they were family, but now I must let go.
You get to realize who are not your friends,
When they knock you to the ground; again and again.