Broken heart but time will heal all wounds... +[JenTheLonely]+

I woke up in the middle of the night around 3:45 a.m. and had this feeling that I'm concerned/sad... Or maybe cause of my aching arms... lol. This morning I was thinking about my boyfriend Josh and why he's been avoiding me. I asked a gossiping friend of mine if she knows any news on him. She said that on valentine's day Josh read a poem outloud in his english class to his girlfriend Mirena. Of course you all know that my name isn't Mirena. Josh didn't even give me a simple hug on Valentine's day.

I was mad. Why didn't Josh tell me that he isn't interested in me? It was cowardly of him to avoid me! But I was glad cause I don't have to suffer wondering if he is still with me or not. I didn't talk to Josh about this mistress of his cause the silence thing is a big clue.

Fight fire with fire! I'll ignore him. What I have learned is that a relationship with no communication isn't worth going through. Today I broke up with Josh online but I didn't wait for a reply on what he thought. I can't stand a person who keeps secrets like this.

There is hope for me... I've got my eyes on someone... The person shall be called "R". Well, yesterday in class I was sitting alone all by myself as usual not making eye-contact with anyone. Then I heard some one said, "I know who R likes... And I bet Mrs. Gonzalez knows too..." in a teasing way. There were other conversations that are unclear and then R said,"She's quiet and depressed!" I guess he's saying that why he's looking at me is because of my disturbing silence and meloncholy mood. My teacher (Mrs. Gonzalez) laughed and said, "Awww, that's sad..."

I didn't react to that comment. LOL. I keep things to myself and share it with very close friends. To make things even better I like R back. I liked R ever since the begining of the school year but didn't really give it much thought cause we're kinda different and he might be too good for me. He's a skater, shy, smart, likes Slipkont, and loves computers. Seems like I know him but I really don't.

Back to the story. I walked to my friend Pauline and talked about Josh and I breaking up and my teacher looked at me in a you-are-in-for-a-surprise look. That I'm-not-telling look. Big clue! A few weeks ago in class i was sitting alone again and R sat right across from me but we didn't talk and I didn't make eye contact, I was busy doing work and my teacher said,"You're towering over her aren't you?..." Mrs.Gonzalez wasn't talking to me. No body was around R and I. Was R looking at me? Obviously, lol. When I walked into class today my teacher yelled and said,"Jennifer! Why didn't you wear your AVID T-Shirt?" it's a uniform t-shirt. R moved his head to get a view of my reaction. Or was he just streching his neck?

Thanks so much for reading this post. I know it's long and all about me and my crummy love life. I hope that R and I will get to know each other... :)

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