Goodbye Pink sad)....please read ...by white lightning !!!

why do youj say no one cares?
When you've got the person that cares about you most right infront of you.
Why do you belittle yourself o much?
You could do and be anything you wanted.
You are so pretty, so bright, so opinionated, so couragous & strong.
Why sell yourself short?
I know times are tough right now,
your family is so screwed up,
you think they dont care,
Why do the things you do?
When you can look at the people around you and see all the anguish, hurt and pain,
you used to tell me you never wanted to be like them,
you say you want help,
I say i am here,
Why do you push me away?
Why do you tell other people about this pain?
strangers?
They cant help...well they can give advice..and most of the time its great,
they cant give ou the shoulder to cry on,
You've got me right here,
I am someone that knows who you are
or so i thought,
So i ask you again, Why do the things you do?
and when you reply, please dont say "i dont "DO" anything" and please dont denie.
I read the poems of your about doing coke,
i read the line about you doing it in the bathroom stall
When i read that...i felt so hurt,
hurt b/c you lied to me about not doing it..and i felt sorry for you.
I also felt really mad..thoughts of telling you how stupid that s*** is!!!
but, then i think...thats not gonna solve anything
you have to realize you aren't just hurting yourself,
your hurting the people that care about you most
I think that its time to let go..of wat we once used to be,
You know i always thought everybody on earth had one person, a person to help them with anything, sorda like an assignment...and you just know when you have found them
I know this sounds crazy but, i always thought i ws yours.
I thought i could solve everything ...all of your problems,
i think about it now & i was wrong.
Obviously your not mine,
b/c i have tried everything,
it isn't working,
and to be honest i am tired of trying to help somebody that want help themselves,
and i am tired of caring about you so much and you not give a d*** about me,
i am tired of hangin around thinkin' ..maybe (*****) will call,
but no...your to busy gettin high!!!
So i say the words to you,
Why do you say no one cares,
well you had me but, not anymore,
you pushed the one person tht has been there for you through alot,
someone you knew would be there for you...if you ever needed anything,
i feel bitter but, i still care
i am constantly in a battle w/ myself about you
not know which to choose,
to be bitter,
or to still care
i ponder on not knowing wat to do
i am so confused ....cuz i feel as though i am lying to myself about not caring.
i know deep inside i do,
i tell myself i want to let go but,
in my heart i still have a strong hold,
well my bitterness has gotton the best of me,
you were my one true freind...and i have a feeling i'll never have another again..
sure i have so called freinds..but deep down they dont mean as much..
i dont really know how to say this in a nice way...
this is the hardest thing i have ever had to do ...so i am just going to put it bluntly...
goodbye to us ...goodbye to you...

the end
by: white lightning

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