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This Is How I Feel Today...RedRiot

  Author:  6558  Category:(Interesting) Created:(6/1/2000 8:14:00 PM)
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I love people. I love to be around people so much that I hate being alone. So why is it that I'm scared to death to go to the grocery store alone? You know, I drove halfway there and then I turned around and came home. I feel good some days. Some days I can get out and do anything that needs to be done, but sometimes I can't.

Chris wants to get back with me, but I can't take him. I can't stand how he is so sensitive, but he expects me to take all his verbal abuse. He expects me to be okay about it when he hangs up on me. But the times I did that to him he freaked out. I know I did some things to him that were wrong. I know at times I treated him badly, but so did he. So why am I sufferring for it and he is not? Why is he sitting on this throne dealing out the blows? We were trying to be friends, but you know what? I don't even like him anymore. I will always love him because that is how I am. We shared things that I will never be able to share with anyone else. But we also didn't share things that we should have. That's how I know it's wrong. I don't want to be friends anymore. It hurts too much. But you must understand that it is so hard to tell someone you love that you don't want them around anymore. That you don't even want to talk to them.

I can't stop hurting today. I keep on crying today. I keep on freaking out today. I'm scared in this big house all alone. I miss something and I'm not sure what it is. I'm longing for a time that is long gone or never even happened. I'm just longing for peace. I'm tired of being the strong one that everyone depends on. I'm not so hard. I'm actually scared to death under this cold exterior. I just need someone to listen to me. I just need someone to talk to me. I can't stop hurting today and I can't stop crying today.

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Date: 6/1/2000 8:37:00 PM  From Authorid: 1631    RR, you are suffering from severe low self-esteem. You are crying for the loss of yourself, not for the loss of an abusive boyfriend. Please make an appointment to talk to a professional who can help you deal with these tremendous feelings. As long as you allow this guy to step on you, he will. Be strong and get help! ...  
Date: 6/1/2000 8:42:00 PM  ( Admin-2 )   Redriot, these feelings that you have are very hard for you to deal with now. However in time they will be dealt with. Don't look for the quick fix, cuz these problems came to be over time, and they will take time to heal. The part of this that you talk about your old boyfriend is easier to handle than you may already think. In your mind you have already moved on. It is very clear that you have already changed paths, and are walking down the one that doesn't have him on it. You said that you have experienced things with him that you will never with anyone else. I'll bet that if I talk to you in 10 years time, you will be quite settled down, with a person that you may call a soul mate. You will look back on that statement, and wonder how you could have thought that. What you know about sharing is only from experiences from today backward. You can't possibly know what kinds of miraculous experiences that you can have with a guy who treats you like a queen. One who totally respects you, and everything you do and say. I have been lucky enough to find someone who does treat me like that, so I know that the dream does exist. The other condition is a disorder that effects many people, I have spoken with people on this site who have it. It is an anxiety disorder that can get worse. You can work on desensitising your self in slow steps. Or get some counseling, that does wonders. You have so much self awarness, that is your true gift to yourself.
Date: 6/1/2000 9:38:00 PM  From Authorid: 7341    RedRiot....maybe you don't like going to the store alone because you're afraid people might think there is something wrong with you because you're alone. I used to feel that way when I was younger, but now I just don't care what other people think! I've never met you before, but I truly feel for you.....I'm sorry you've had to go through an abusive relationship. Maybe when he is gone it'll be like a ray of sunshine poking through the storm clouds! It sounds like you could use a break from everyone and everything. Maybe it would do you some good to go on a little vacation and totally pamper yourself! I agree with what the above replies say....if things get harder for you, maybe you should see a doctor. I hope you make it through this point in your life. If you ever need someone to talk to, email me at [email protected]. Good luck! ~Corky  
Date: 6/1/2000 9:40:00 PM  From Authorid: 7341    I didn't mean doctor....I meant a counselor or someone to just talk to. *it's late and I'm sleepy* ~Corky  
Date: 6/2/2000 10:31:00 AM  From Authorid: 1432    **Gives you a big HUG** don't know really what to say to help you out..just hope things lift soon ..  

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