Body Dismorphic Disorder...How Are You S'posed 2 Know If U Have It?

From my understanding, or what others have told me, Body Dysmorphic Disorder is a disorder in which a person is never satisfied with the way they look even though they may appear to be attractive to other people. I just wonder if a person can actually be UGLY and still be considered as having Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I know that I'm very critical of the way I look, but that's simply because there are so many faults with me that it's almost impossible not to notice. The number of hours I spend trying to better my skin and hair is typically between 3 to 4 hours per day, plus add on to that the fact that I run to the mirror about every 10 minutes or so just to make sure that I still look ok (which I usually don't). And I'm going to die because school starts tommorow and I want to look absolutely stunning, but realistically I know that will never happen. I've been trying so hard to find things that I can do. Whenever I go to the mall I buy a load of make-up but when I get home to try it out I look just as ugly as I ever did. My face shouts out PLAIN JANE! I dunno, whenever I see my reflection I want to yawn because it's so boring and uninteresting compared to other girls my age. I really don't know how everyone else manages to look so perfect and put together, because my morning ritual for getting ready is probably the same as anyone else's yet I look a million times worse. Perhaps it's all just in my head because no one has ever actually called me ugly before...I just know that I feel ugly, and I know that it bothers me to know that I can't fix what's wrong with me. Is it normal to think about the way you look 24/7? I mean that literally because I think about it ALL the time. They're the only thoughts that fill my mind.

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