what do i need to know?

my b'day is 1/24/72. i would like to know what do i neeto know about being Bi how does it work really .I have been with guys but it was'nt real. I just did it i don't want to do that any more. and i hav'nt . some times i see a guy i'm attracted to for some reason & it isnt sexual its just the guy and maybe parts on him .I thought it was because I wanted to be like them .when i was a boy there would be another boy that i wanted to be frends with, he would either have a nice look or was out going and I just wanted to be friend with them. this is like over the years thats why i say them. it was like if i could have i would have them as my friend only. some times i would get to know them a little if we were in thesame class but that was it. i would try and hang with them some times so i could see how they do things. sometimes they did'nt want me around some times it actually hurt,I thought bcause I was'nt like them but maybe it was attraction. maybe that is the missing link in me the part tat will make me whole . because i feel like i'm missing something that i have to learn to be like other guys whe that isnt me im just down to earthand friendly. i am masculine in every way . I dont sound like a girl I sound like a guy.the guys at work call me bond because I speak correct english and i have a book all the time. they think i talk funny. so what should I do