why are they doubting me?

hi I have a question. my b'day is 1/24/72. first of all i would like to thank you for the advice on the last questions . my new question deals with leaving here and going up north. my cousin keep telling me that i would'nt make that much more up there & that the cost of living is higher & I know this already .I just need to go somewhere big where people don't have time to pay attention to other people,talk about people because they dont have a life or need something to talk about ,where there are different kinds of jobs ,like airports,dilivery jos, and where there is a night life . if wanted to go to a jazz club or a gay club or poetry reading, where there is more culture. different kinds of people different races, thats not here. where women are looking for a good man,and want to settle down,because I need a family & quick before I become extinct. I want to go back to school and get a degree in some thing. a 2 year college,computer networking or respiratory therapy. I have made mistakes financially, but I need to get away. im tired of women checking me out then some guy go and mess it up by telling a lie on me.why cant I find peace like when I was i SanDiego ,Ca that time I was so at peace & I was only visiting. why cant they see that i need this. I'm thinking about saving money up and then moving to another city of my choice on my own probably california.