THE END FOR ME!!

I'm getting very frustrated,This is the 3rd time i have tried to summit this and i have lost it twice,Each time it is a little differant,for i don't compose any of this before hand,maybe i should.I just let it come to me,a word may be differant each time i write this but the context is still here.Let me start with this IS NOT fiction,I only wish it was,I would not be writting this if you readers knew the true me,simply for the reason,there would be too many questions from family and well meaning friends.If you read one of my other stories..THE EVIL THAT LIVES WITHIN; this might make a little more sense..maybe. This is a true story:If you choose to belive it or not that is up to you ,Wheather you do or don't will not change the course of this.This started when i was 12 years old,I found this out through hypnosis,{by a professional}The voices i hear:and yes[ i went the medical route at first and that was a waste of time not to mention money]are demonic,they have "allowed" me to 'grow but now they want me ,not me,but my physical body,they have told me so. I have known this would happen sooner or later i had just hoped that i would get to see my grand-children grow{i have one}needless to say i am scared,not so much about my physical body will be ,but ME my essence,who i am what makes me; ME. I have already said good-bye to my family,though they don't relise it.Try and smile at the same time you tell everyone you care about good-bye. One of the hardest things i have ever done. The reason i am 'writting'this is First; to fill a NEED,i want it on 'paper',at least that there is SOME kind of "record",I don't expect any of the readers to find a solution,for there is none. I want to thank you all for listning,Please love those around you take care,and good-bye Hopeless: authorid 29578

It has not only changed my life it has ended it,my heart will keep on beating,i just won't be in "excistence" anymore

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