Strange/Scary Feelings

Hello, there's something that I need to share with somebody. I'm even nervous just typing this right now?! Anyway, my husband is in the Navy, and he is overseas right now. He'll be back this coming Sept. 15th. Well, we live in San Diego, CA, but I'm here in Texas with my family while he's away. Well, we moved to Cali last October and ever since then I've been having very bad, nerve racking, scary feelings about my husband. I hate feeling this way or even thinking this, but I have ALWAYS felt that something was going to happen to my husband. I'm sure a lot of military wives and husbands feel nervous about their spouse, but this is a really STRONG feeling. It really takes over sometimes. It scares me more, because we've only been married 1yr and 1mo, and we don't have any children either. We got married by the judge, and we were trying to get married by the church this year, but it's just not happening. I can't help but wonder if this is happening for a reason, the no church wedding and no children. I get this feeling that we're not going to last, but not because of no love or infidelities, but because something will happen to him?! I don't know what to do anymore. I pray all the time for peace of mind, but it ALWAYS comes back. I try to think positively, but it doesn't work. You see, usually when I get these strong feelings they come true, and THAT is what scares me the most. I cry just thinking that. Now with all these terrorist threats going on in the middle east and him not being able to tell me where they're at now, REALLY scares me. Is something going to happen to my husband or us? I pray that nothing happens, but why am I feeling this way? What can I do to stop this? Will we ever have children? Please help if you have time, I would really appreciate it! God Bless..........(sdangel)

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