Visited by a dead friend

I woke up crying early Saturday Morning because of a dream I had. I dreamt that my friend Mary was looking for a sales receipt. She mentioned other things but I could not remember. I remember seeing her face and I woke up crying. The reason I was crying is that she is no longer with us. She died in a car accident in late January. I was angry because she died for two reasons. One, she was full of life, she had everything to live for. She was in her 30's, was a school teacher and a nurse, and she loved working with kids. The second reason I was angry with myself is that I could not cry when I was told of her death. I found to my shocking surprise that a tv show made me cry more than my friend's death. I will always hold on to the last memory of Mary: her always smiling, laughing face. She was never angry, always kind. I still don't understand why God wanted you to leave this earth except to be one of his angels. Rest in Peace Mary. -Payne

I was able to grieve for my friend and I am more in peace and no longer angry at God.