Lightworker: I asked you about my friend now I'm asking about me

Hi Lightworker!

Last week, I asked you about my friend Belinda and if she would be happy. Just to update you I wrote her a letter outlining what you told me to do. Tomorrow, I am going to call her and restate what I wrote in the letter. Now I'm going to ask you the question: when will I be happy? Nothing in my life is going right. I'm not comfortable in my own skin and I've felt this way ever since I was 5. I wish I was more financially secure and finally, I've never been in a relationship because of what I'm going through. I want to be honest with my "beloved" and not lie but yet I came in to this world being something that I didn't asked to be. I'm not gay but because of my appearance, people that I encounter think I am. If I was, I would embrace. It is because of this situation that I let someone that I cared deeply walk out of my life. I didn't know how to tell her that I was different in a way that I didn't asked to be. I am beginning to think that my situation maybe more hormonal because I have an inbalance.

Any insight would be helpful.

Thank-you, Sincerely Payne