Good evening USM! Just figured I would drop in and give you the latest update. See how everyone is doing.
I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. I hope unlike here you don't have snow! I also hope that for all of us who experience winter weather that spring comes soon!!!
So let me give you the update I won't go through posting all the workouts I have done in the last couple weeks because honestly I don't remember all of them and I don't want to try to look through my facebook photos to get them all. I have been working very hard, pushing myself, and having so much fun. I never thought I would enjoy this, look forward to it, as much as I do. I have been doing things I didn't think I was capable of. I've been very proud and continue to be proud and take it one day at a time.
Things were going really well, I was feeling fantastic. I was continuing to feel stronger, happier, and all together just doing well but I injured myself on Friday, and pulled a muscle in my shoulder. Talk about pain! Thankfully it wasn't my bad shoulder that I screwed up years ago that ended my swimming career.
Now I'm cranky and annoyed with myself. I needed a lesson and I got it.
It was totally avoidable.
Let me explain: I am doing the Crossfit Open, it's a competition of sorts but I was mainly doing it to prove to myself I could do it. Well Friday, I was really pushing myself to the limit and I was sooo focused on doing it, get it done, faster, faster....that I didn't use my brain. I was doing a push press lift above head when i couldn't cut it. I got the bar part way above my head and the strength wasn't there. I have a bad habit of letting it fall backwards instead of forwards, it's something I am working on but the key is to let go of the bar right away as to not injure yourself. For some reason, this didn't click in my brain. I held on and took 75 lbs backwards behind my head with a grip still on the bar. It hurt terribly, and I dropped the bar (although not as soon as I should have). Instead of stopping I pushed on for a bit longer and well the pain was killer by the time I actually did stop the workout completely. No one is to blame but myself. I am stubborn and needed to learn a lesson. Lesson: pain sucks, shoulder hurts, and now I will be missing Crossfit until at least Wednesday (I was told to take a few days to let it heal), if not longer depending on how my shoulder is doing. If i need to take longer I will. I don't want to make myself worse, although I hope I am good to go ASAP.
So I spent the last 24 hours being angry and making sure I don't forget that this could have been avoided and to be more careful now. I am lucky it isn't worse. Until the shoulder is better I am going to focus on cardio, no lifting.
For the Crossfit open week 1 I was in 45693 place out of 46444. You may be like, "Wow, that's pretty bad." But I am really proud of myself. I have only been doing Crossfit since just over 2 months. I am glad I can see where I am now so I can compare myself in years to come. I am waiting to see what happens with week 2 but I am fairly certain I will drop down to near bottom if not last place due to my failed performance on Friday, and that I may need to skip out this Friday. You live and you learn. The Open was my chance to see where I was, what I needed to work out, and challenge myself. So far in the first 2 weeks (there is 5 weeks in all) I have learned I am stronger than I think, I need to be more patient, I need to follow proper lifting directions more careful, and I have to have more faith in myself.
As for everything else, diet is going fairly well. I am not as strict as I could be so it is always a work in progress but I am happy and haven't hard any issues with heart burn which is the largest concern. I have been keeping very strict on portion sizes, however, not so strict on how healthy the food I am eating actually is but that gives me something to work on.
I need to keep my head up. I need to let this shoulder heal, and not stress about it. :) Back to one day at a time.
Gotta keep it real and keep on trucking!
