My grandmother who was the most important person in my life, who took care of me since I was little, and made sure I had everything I needed, even after I moved out and went to college passed away 5 short days ago. We didn't always get along, and we didn't always see each others point of view. Since she passed away I have realized everything she did for me, and realized just how spoiled I was. Now that she is gone, it's too late to thank her for everything she has done for me. She let me live with her for free so I could work and save money for college, she let me use her car to go to work, she even went as far as paying off my student loans when I was stupid and dropped out of college. I tried to pay her back and she refused to take the money. I admit that I have a temper when certain buttons are pushed, and she was great at knowing exactly which ones to push to make me upset. I honestly think she is the only person that was and is able to do that. So many horrible, horrible things were said back and forth between the two of us.
She was put on a morphine drip on the 16th. By that night, she was sleeping all the time. Even though she was sleeping, I told her how sorry I was for everything I said and did, and felt like I disappointed her by coming home drunk or high during my highschool years. I was hoping that she could hear me, but I was never quite sure. I just pray to God that she did hear me.
On the 19th, something unexplainable happened. She was sleeping since the 16th, and the whole family was standing around her bedside, crying, and praying for her. I remember her opening her eyes, looking around for me, locking eyes on me, and with all the strength she had, she whispered "I love you." Immediately she closed her eyes again, and slept until she passed away on the morning of the 20th. I will never ever forget that moment as long as I live.
I'm just wondering how do I deal with the things left unsaid? I'd give anything to have 5 minutes to be able to tell her how much I love and miss her, and to tell her everything I wanted to tell her while she was alive. You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or
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It depends a lot on whether you believe in an afterlife. If you do then tell her now all the things you want to. She will hear. If you have no belief in an afterlife then please take comfort in the fact that you both did really love each other even though it wasnt always easy. We like to be able to say all the things we feel we need to, but in actual fact when two people are close these things dont always need to be said. Make her proud now and live life to the full. 
