I haven't been able to get to the site lately as much as I've wanted, but my new work schedule has thrown me kinda loopy. Bru has been here about 2 months now, and even though I've told him face-to-face how much I appreciate everything he's done, I want to make it public.
When we first started talking about him moving in, my life and my house was a complete disaster. I stressed about everything, and it was only compounded by the fact that I had no one to vent to, no one really to share the burden with or even just to talk to. I couldn't really bug my mom too much because she was still dealing with the death of my dad and had her own crosses to bear.
I've had a spiritual awakening of sorts. Before, I felt dead inside, just going through the motions of making it day to day, giving my kids the bare minimum they needed without paying much attention to their emotional and mental growth.
I also tend to be sort of lazy, and it shames me to admit that, but there it is. Bruce is a hardworking man who seemingly never stops going and doing for others. The change in my children has been amazing. Sure they still act like little monsters and try to push the boundaries, but the overall change has been really positive. They needed a constant male role model in their lives like Bruce to help guide them on the path to manhood. I simply could not be that role.
I was very ill about a week ago, due to having run out of my bipolar meds (they got caught up in the postal system somehow and took a week to get to me). I was basically useless for about 4-5 days, sleeping all the time, feeling pretty much catatonic and unresponsive. How I managed to get the kids dressed and on the bus is beyond me, it's like I was on autopilot, just doing enough to get by. Bruce stepped in and took the reins like a champ, and never complained about it once.
This is the blessed thing about such a friendship that I'm so happy to have. He works midnight shift, and sleeps during the day, and still manages to get the kids to their activities while I'm working. I think the kids are finally getting, or starting to get, how much we both sacrifice in order for them to have a happier healthier well-rounded life.
Friendships like ours are rare in today's society. We have our bumps in the road, and don't always agree on everything, but we talk. A lot. Communication is key to maintaining any sort of relationship, and I'm thankful that we have the ability to open up and get what's on our mind out there in a non-threatening, non-fighting way.
So in closing, I want to say thank you to USM for being such a great place that allowed me to meet such a great person who I'm happy to have in my life. And I want to say thank you to Bruce for being there for me when I wasn't sure I could be there for myself. I want you to know you're appreciated around here, even if it's not said as much as it should be.
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