My Bad Luck Never Ends and Strange Happenings.~~~~~Bruiex

My posts recently have touched on the discrimination I face, the inability to work and my depression.On the other side, I have tried to stay positive and deal with them head on.Lately everyday has been filled with Dreams of the dead, old girlfriends and end times apocolyptic images. A vivid dream of me talking with my dead friend Steve,the one I found dead in my living room in March 1993. Also, another old friend has fallen so far into crack addiction he is lost, forever.If I had been in contact, feel he would have been stopped before it began.

It started about a week ago. Another one of my good friends, a stay at home dad, J.Coker called me up to make me a offer that would have put 150 dollars in my pocket for a few hours of my time.He was just waiting to hear from the guy.Then the day he is going to call me, his cellphone gets disconnected and I can't get a hold of him and he hasn't called me back.Now, I am worried.Goodbye, money that i desperatly needed.

Dreams, oh the dreams....that dim light before waking is a world of reality and symbols...the break of dawn allows me to reflect on the night before.Steve was talking to me just like he always did.Giving me a hard time, telling me that if I can't get something done, he'll do it himself.It was very real, kind'uve felt like Hurly of the show Lost who keeps seeing his friend Charlie over and over, telling him, that he isn't dead and what Hurly needs to do.

That dream was before the phone call, my brother/psychic friend J.J. called me the next time to tell me about T-Bone or Tim.

A little background, Tim is adopted, his parents are in their 80's and have never given up on Tim.Which they should have because enabling him has made him worse.They have a big house on many acres in Johnson County, they even bought Tim a trailer for him to live.he has a child from his drug buddy girlfriend Penny.Where she is, have no idea..sufficith to say he claimed the child and got his Tax refund back, It was 2,500 dollars..How he got that much is beyond me.

He went over to my old side of town, took the money and spent it all in 2 weeks on "ladies of the night" and drugs.All of It!!! Now he is living in his car next to my old house (Elizabeth house) and the church parking lot zone inbetween both.We now think he is so desperate that he is going to rob someone or even cause the death of his parents to gain control of the property, It would be easy for him to make it look like a accident.I know this is shocking but if you seen the things I have in life, you would understand why this is a real possibility.People do horrible things everyday and get away with it.

This led to a conversation about Faith and Spirituality with Jeff.He said something to me that stunned me, he has never talked to much about the christian faith but tonight he did a lot.We discussed how the state of the world has reached a point where Children are under attack everyday,evil forces seem to be gaining strength and shocking violence and extreme perversion seems to be the norm today.It's like sins have been amplified 10 fold.That said, he thinks the force known as Sataan is trying to destroy kids to find the birth of the new messiah,just like Herod did when predictions that lead to the birth of the King of Kings.he said Satan knows the time is near and thinks Jesus second coming will be as before.It will not, it's supposed to happen in Full Glory of his divine presence.

He said that he will come when the last soul that can be saved is.He said that soul might be mine. The reason is Tim. I have more negative bad things happen to me than he has seen in anyone's life, that it is amazing that I haven't given up like Tim went to the darkside and made a fortune doing very evil things.While Tim has been given everything a person could have,cars,homes,money and unconditional love.yet, he has never changed over 20 years. He is still acting the same way he did in 1986. He says the problem with Tim is he has No Soul.There is nothing but a Hole where a human should be.

While I am a ancient soul who has been reincarnated many,many times.That my connection with the divine is strong that is why the Lord of this World is trying to destroy me.I am like that Priest in the movie, the Exorcist who relentlessly pursued by the evil ones.

I just hope that doesn't mean I will have to give up my life to save others but would if I had too.

So, here I am with this new found strength of spirit.Detailed in my Pay it Back--Pay It Forward post.

Now,living up to my word with my landlord and finishing the job painting the house.The job I have done here is worth minumum 1,500 dollars for 150 hours of work (still counting) and Paint,material and tools. I got 2 months rent for it, amounts to 600 dollars.Yet still, my Word is all I have.

Well, have arranged a deal with a couple for them to move in when I leave soon.. exchange for shifting my deposit over to them, they would allow me to keep some of my things locked up in the shed for storage until a few months from now when I am settled.

So, I haven't had a good meal or a solid one for a 200 lb,6' 3" guy for a while now.They offered me some meat if I drove on the otherside of the freeway.Not very far..I don't drive much at all, because of gas and problems getting my driver's license renewed, which has been the core of my problems.If you can't drive in Texas, you are in dire straits trying to work, that compounded with all my other issues is why getting a job has been so difficult.

There i go..My insurance ran out on the 5th...yesterday was the 6th.What happens, A cop pulls me over and gives me a no insurance ticket and expired inspection.

That's it, I am done, Unless I get very lucky in the next week..My Driver's license is gone for a long time.A judge in Burleson has stuck me with payment plans last October, even though on unemployment, now that is up to a thousand dollars and it is wrong what he has done to me.I was not guilty but now cannot prove it.It's a long story and this post is starting to get long as ususal.

So now unless I can come up with some insurance with No Money (impossible) I'll have another no insurance ticket, That is going to cost me 2,000 dollars to deal with because of all the thingd DPS makes you pay to get your license back..Because it would be a second one.

That's why I wrote the poem, I am sick, yesterday.

Nothing seems to go right for me Ever..

This is where the mysterious happening happened.At the same time. I was very angry at the situation,livid and in a rage.Where my van parked was in a apartment complex parking lot.One that I had been before with Jeff helping him with his carpet business,The van was bought from him.

Well, his electricity went out.His bill has been paid and calls to his provider said there was no disconnect scheduled for his house.No other home in the neighborhood had a problem. After telling him what had just happend later, he aske the time and told me this. He felt a surge of emotions, he was watching news about how in Baltimore 84,000 people haven't paid their electric bil and if the temps get over 30, the power plant is shutting of electricity.

It happened at that moment.

Jeff doesn't believe in coincidence.he said we are linked and my state of mind sent a wave of energy that shut down his house.he thinks that the Devil wants me real bad and is trying to cause me to destroy myself.

He said my strength of spirit and of my soul is on the Proving ground.That the other day when I was prayed for and the exorcising of my demons has alerted them to try and drag me down further,It found my weakness, Food and used that to manipulate me into a situation where my temper would erupt and implode the direction and resolve, I have found.

The Devil wants me In My Place..Or the Dark entity that plagues my life.

I won't give up.Wil not let my unhappiness and self loathing to keep me from the Good Work. No Matter what, even if everything is lost, The captain of the good Ship Bruiex will survive this Storm.

Evil is trying to Stop Me, because I see it. Nothing is invisible to a Druid. if we are looking. this is my Truth.So Mote it Be.

That i am special..hehehehehe

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