spiritual training, please

I am but a man who knows nonthing, but at the same time i know alot. i am a very deepy spiritual person, my power awesome, i battle demons they look like shadows to me or maybe just a aspect of my subconscious,. now to the point i belive that i am a half breed of demon and an angel, i know it sounds werid but i am a very peaceful person, but at the same time my thoughts evil as evil can be, i am very much into lucid dreaming knowing when you are dreaming when you are indeed dreaming, anyhow i loved takeing over my higher self and progessing with it to the stage that it is at now, i do not know if my higher self really in fact exist, but i must keep strong, and belive. anyhow you got the point people, that i am a awesome spiritual master in warfare, for i hold many armys power under my own. anhow for awhile now i been interrested in energy, and while lucid i would cause great amounts of energy to form in my hands, and more some. i loved this energy and it exists and each time i train harder with it i grow stronger with it. and how it exists in me right, and while lucid i can instantly cause a blast of it without thinking and attack, but if i concentrate i can muster it aswell within while lucid and that causes even bigger attacks. i want to know something friends, if i power my energy to its maxinum limit while lucid, how would i tanscend that limit, by the way i also control the powers of darkness and light. thanks for your time