Depressed/somewhat true.......Michiru yuy

everyone thinks that everybody's life is peachy right? well, i can prove them wrong. is it just me or do parents like to get in your way and destroy your life. Just because i don't like talking to them or my brother does it mean that they have to take my presents away and talk about me in the other room pretending i don't hear them even though i do hear them every word. "kaitlin's being so B*tchy, i'm takeing her presents back to the store tomarrow" "yea, she's as ignorant as her friends are.". As if it's not bad enough that i'm moving again i'm not able to talk to my friend's anymore once i move. i'm shaking now and can't stop , my blood is running cold . i can feel my it dripping down my arm's as i type this to you, my love. My face is pale and boney, not a drop of fat on me (yea i wish) my eye's are distant and empty. i hate them i really do ya know but they don't belive me.....thy don't want to belive me. i their mind's we're one big happy family they know it's not true they try to hide who i am. i'm pagan. is that so wrong? what did i do to deserve the treatment i get? just because i study something other than christanity. everyone say's do discrimanate kaitlin what did they do to you? why do hate everybody? are you goning to kill him? same questions everyday, same answer's everyday. they discrimanated me, they hate me, and no. i'm slowly loosing my breath, and thing's are starting to get blurry. what did i do i just want to know. now i'm crying oh god i'm crying. i never cry not since i was 6 anyways. i'm lost tired and want to go home. I'm Miserable. i'd be happier if i were on the streets with no one at least then i'd have one thing to worry about.........myself. if i live through this , what will happen? will i be acepted? cared for? or thrown off onto the side roads?will i have to sleep with my door open everynight now? i don't want to survive. what they'd do and what they would say to me i don't even want to know. I just want the pain to go away. all of it. can't i go home or is that not possible? it's all i want. that's all.

somethings are spelled wrong and don't make sence but i was depressedand didn't know what was typing. not all of it's true

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